B&B
This have nothing to do with Bed and Breakfast. For me, It's Brooklyn and Bronx, two different boroughs in New York City. I live in Brooklyn in the moment and in the process of moving to Bronx. One is down south and the other one is up north. There is the map on the left so it's from one pink to another pink. Pink boy heheh.
I love Brooklyn. Brooklyn once was the 4th largest city in US. There are so much to offer-- Beaches, Botanical Garden, Museum, and special BAM( Brooklyn Academy of Music). It really makes Brooklyn differently. So why do Iwant to move if there are so many wonderful things in Brooklyn? It just takes me too long to travel back and forth. besides, I have some friends who live in the same building to make my life more fun.
My memory about Brooklyn is always lovely. There are more brown buildings than those modern ugly houses. Prespect park is like a small version of central park. There are a lot of offer. The movie, the object of my affection was filming in Prospect Park. It's one of Jennifer Aniston's movie.
The new apartment is near by Yankee Stadium. I am excited to move. There will be a lot of sunlight in my apartment compared to the one I am living now and eat-in kitchen. :) It's just a real deal. The only thing I need to do now is to work hard and make more money to pay the huge rent.
I live in New York for almost 8 years. I moved around a lot. I have lived all different places within the city, Flushing, Astoria, East Harlem, Brooklyn, Jersey City. Oh, Jersey City wasn't considered as NYC. haha Bronx will be the 4th borough I will live in NYC. I am proud to live in the different part of the city. I have chances to observe this most hybrid city in the world.
Bronx was always part of New York City if you go to New York Public Library. There is a Sizzler in Bronx. I don't know anyone would appreciate that. But, My friend and I were so excited when we found out the restaurant. It's part of our memory to Taipei. I remembered "all you can eat" was the big thing in Taiwan in 90'. Sizzler was everywhere. After "all you can eat" phenomenon blows, all the restaurants are gone. It's so funny we found it when he had to fix his car in Bronx. We couldn't wait to get in to enjoy the meal. It's more about memory than meal itself. Like 2 kids in theme park, everythings came back.
So visit me sometimes after Thanksgiving. I will be in Bronx for a while.
Purple
Empire State Building has the light on every night. It always has different colors when there was a special event in the city or not. I was house sitting last night so I got a chance to see the light. Last night was purple. I used to have a purple shirt when I was in college. I actually liked it very much. It putted me in a relaxed mood. Human being is a visual animal. Color does play with our feeling in our life. I liked purple. It's has Velvet feeling. It's soft, elegant and mysterious.
I was surprised "purple" was on the top of the building. I don't know does it have any meaning or celebrate something? I do like it beside it always shoot blue, red and white. :)
The Book of Daniel
The show had been canceled after a couple of episodes on air because the content was too controversy and all Christians protested the show. It's how funny "The weed" wasn't canceled even the show teaches people how to bake the weed.
I saw the first 3 episodes. They were very interesting. It talked about sex, sexuality, racisim, drugs, stolen money, and alcohol. Everything was circled around the "Faith". So, Rev. Daniel has a gay son, a daughter who sells the weeds to buy a software, an adopted son who sleeps around, an alchohol wife, a dumb sister-in-law. How lucky he is!! He has this dysfuntional family that no one ever had. That makes the story special.
The gay son was played by Christian Campbell who played Gabriel in Trick. I love the movie, "Trick". It's light and has a happy ending. The movie actually made me smile a lot when I watched. Peter is out to his family except his grandpa who is an old and conservative reverend. His grandpa set him up with a girl when he was in the church. And, he hit on her brother. Hummm it happened all the time. He took her to see a broadway show "La Cage Aux Folles". How gay it could be! So Peter didn't want to come out to his grandpa because he didn't want to hurt him. We heard this words all the time. Is this still a closet case? That's the story wants to discuss about.
An adopted son who is a chinese and dated a white girl who is the daughter of his father's coworker. The girl's mom wanted seperated them because he is an asian. It's a very simply racism thing doesn't have any depth at all.
The show is very entertaining. I will get another disc in a couple of days. It discussed about the "Faith". I was raised in an atheist family. I don't really know how strong the christian faith can affect the people until I came to US. Faith can make you love or can make you hate people. It really played by someone's hand. I do have my faith but not with God or any spiritual things. We need to believe something to live on this uncertain world. Like the faith, we all find someone we will love someday. It sounds like a joke. haha.
Keep tuned! I will be back when I saw more episodes.
Songs In my Ipod
I don't have very good music taste. I like all cheezy songs. Those really put me in the mood. My ipod loaded many songs. Recently I have been listening Rob Thomas, Moby and Nick Lachey. I really love one song from Rob Thomas, Now comes the night and Moby's Where you end.
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When the hour is upon us And our beauty surely gone No you will not be forgotten And you will not be alone No you will not be alone And when the day has all but ended And our echo starts to fade No you will not be alone then And you will not be afraid No you will not be afraid When the fog has finally lifted From my cold and tired brow No I will not leave you crying No I will not let you down No I will not let you down I will not let you down Now comes the night Feel it fading away And the soul underneath Is it all that remains So just slide over here Leave your fear in the fray Let us hold to each other 'Til the end of our days
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Rob Thomas has a warm voice when he sang this song. I felt like i saw a light in the dark. A winter night, a person, a lonely small apartment, and a glass of red wine(oooops I don't drink when I was at home). There comes the hope to tell you everything will be alright.
We all are afraid to be lonely. New York is the city that everyone pretends to be so busy that no one would see your loneliness. Rob Thomas sang "No you will not be alone." I love that. I can see that one dim light that leaves for the last one who comes home.
Where you end
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Some things fall apart Some things makes you whole Some things that you find Are beyond your control I love you and you're beautiful You write your own songs What if the right part of leaving Turned out to be wrong If I could kiss you now Oh I'd kiss you now again and again 'Til I don't know where I begin And where you end Thought I fell in love the other day With an old friend of mine I was running kisses Down every inch of her spine We had the roof down The sun came shining in The black fact is That I was thinking of you If I could kiss you now Oh I'd kiss you now again and again 'Til I don't know where I begin And where you end I slept in the sun the other day I thought I was fine Everything seemed perfect 'Til I had you on my mind I tried to love you I did all that I could I wish that the bad now Had finally turned into good If I could kiss you now Oh I'd kiss you now again and again 'Til I don't know where I begin And where you end If I could kiss you now If I could kiss you now If I could kiss you now Oh where you end Is where I begin Oh where you end Oh where you end
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Where I end. I don't really know. I like the idea Moby sang "if I could kiss you now, I will kiss you again and again." It's so romantic and poetic. There is a hope in the song too. Where you end is where I begin. We all know when someone cuts you off from them, you are in the end and desperated but also it's your shining begining. We will have a new start and it's all good because the end is the begining. hahah, so ZEN, right? No end will not have a begining. Now, I feel like I am playing these two words now.
I might be end somewhere. But, it doesn't matter. I will have a positive attitude to begin. :)
The Shipping News from Annie Proulx
Alright! I hope I wouldn't get into copyright issue. I just want to type the first four paragraphs of her book. And, why do I think it's very interesting?
Here is from the book
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Here is an account of a few years in the life of Quoyle, born in Brooklyn and raised in a shuffle of dreary upstate towns.
Hive-spangled, gut roaring with gas and cramp, he survived childhood; at the state university, hand clapped over his chin, he camouflaged torment with smiles and silence. Stumbled through his twenties and into his thirties learning to separteate his feelings from his life, counting on nothing. He ate prodigiously, liked a ham knuckle, buttered spuds.
His jobs: distributor of vending machine candy, all-night clerk in a convenience store, a third-rate newspaperman. At thirty-six, bereft, brimming with grief and thwarted love, Quoyle steered away to Newfoundland, the rock that had generated his ancestors, a place he had never been nor thought to go.
A watery place. And Quoyle feared water, could not swim. Again and again the father had broken his clenched grip and thrown him into pools, brooks, lakes and surf. Quoyle knew the flavor of brack and waterweed.
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I guessed it's enough. It's only 4 paragraphs. But, I really get glanced to know who he was, what he liked, what he feared. It made me wanting to read more. I knew she is the winner of the pulitzer prize. No doubt the book was so vivid and attractive.
The reason why I typed those paragraphs is because we were trying to formulate some scripts. I always think I am a bad storyteller. I like to read good novels and watch interesting movies.
Here, Quoyle, what an interesting name, is a very ordinary man who lives in an ordinary life and is kind of boring himself. One of the very interesting point from Annie Proulx was the names of the characters in the book. Quoyle( a coil of rope).... I haven't heard anyone who has this kind of name. Graphically, the name gives me some kind of tie, curve and going through because you see "Q", then "O" and then "Y" "L". The rope is kind of no strength, sloppy and can be molded whatever you want. It's pretty much him in the book. Rope also can form many beautiful knots. There is a theme in the book that is about knots. Every chapter has a knot that represents what the story is about. It's so cute.
Tell me what you guys think! Thanks!!
Hey, Maurice! Throw some ideas from your thought!
Behind the Red Door
I was bored yesterday. The movie was on Logo channel. I saw some scenes before but not a whole movie. I likeed Kiefer Suferland from "24" who is a great actor. The movie was talked about a person who is dying in AIDS wanted his sister to come back to Boston and took care of him in a last few months.
Although the charactor is gay and has AIDS, I felt like the movie tried to deal with their emotion to each other and how family was broken. The sister was tried to search for the family secret and reconcile themselves.
I love how the two characters were portrayed. Roy( Kiefer Suferland) is a strong character that he would try so hard to get anything he wants. He forced his sister to stay and took care of him. So, I found one thing is very interesting. We somehow all inherited the bad part of our parents whom we hate so much when we were kids. We would performed the same kind of behaviors in our life. I guessed we adopted what we learned in our early life through the time. That's how we find our awkard behaviors to make other people unhappy. I remembered my mom always ordered me around which I don't like very much. One time I was with a friend. He told me I did the same thing as my mom did it to me. I felt very bad. Returned to the movie, in order to get his sister to stay with him, he would yell at her to make her feel bad and stayed. I see strong emotion in him and couldn't be out. It's like a volcano that always want to come out.
There were a conversation between each other before he passed away soon. Roy asked Natalie( his sister) how come she never had any long term relationship. She answered she liked to be alone. But, he said "No one prefers to be alone. The first step is scary but it's worth it." In this world, being alone is always the easist strategy to deal with complex of the emotional rollercoaster. We are all afraid to be hurt. But, that's the life, right? Grown up is to learn how to take the wound and become a positive attitude.
To the people who are brave enough to embrace the relationship!!
Shortbus
Shortbus started showing from last Friday. It was John Cameron Mitchell's new film. I thought it should be very interesting. I am not sure anyone have seen his last film, "Hedwig and the Angry Inch". It was a movie that was full of dramatic moments and not very realistic. I liked the direction of the movie but there were some moments I didn't like. But, in a whole, it's a good movie.
Shortbus was a really fun movie. I like the begining of the movie. It started the camera focused on the model of NYC which is like lego architechtures. Following the camera, we fly in the sky of New York City. It's really cute and sweet. After flying into someone's window, the movie has some shocking images, real sex on screen. Haha, yeah, no fake scene. It's not very common in an american movie( it happened more in european movies because they are more relaxed about sex). It's not a porn movie. But, it's real. It made me remember I saw "37°2 le Matin (Betty Blue)" in the first time when I was a freshman in college. My libral school always got us to see some unrated movies. I saw a couple making love on screen in the first. That's quite an learning experience in my early school life since I was a country boy. lol
Sex is very important as a human being although most of animals only have sex on the specific season, like when they need to be productive or something. For people, sex is not just restore the gene either generate more people. Sex is also full of joy and fun to do. I read an article that dogs become more active in sex after they live with human being longer. I don't know it's a good thing for a dog lol.
Sex is the main topic in this movie. There is a straight couple and a gay couple in the movie. In the straight couple, the wife is a sex therapist and never come in her sex life. Haha how ridiculous right? When she needs to tell her clients how wonderful the sex is and she never have the sex with fullfillment. The husband always thinks he couldn't satisfy his wife. Maybe he is too small or doesn't last long enough. ha, it looks like this is an universal man's problem. And then, there is a gay couple who tried to open their relationship because one guy thinks he can love more than one person. And the other one has been filming himself and his boyfriend because he wants to suicide soon.
We all have frustration in life just like our sex. I saw the movie last weekend. I couldn't really remember the detail of the movie because I didn't write the note. And, my laptop is really screwed right now. I actually tried to write this note last week. My computer was crashed when I wrote 2/3 of it. And, I didn't have a chance to pick it up at all. Those are some feeling I have for the movie.
Shortbus is like rollercoaster ride. I felt a lot of sad moments in the movie although there are some happy parts. We always say commmunication is a very important element in our life to be in the relationship. In terms of sex, we are so lack of courage to talk about it.
I love this movie. But, when I was in the movie theater, there was a person who is soooo annoying who sits next to me. He laughed when no people laughed and he was making sounds like no one on his side. So pissed off. I have to be careful who sits next to me next time. hah
Storyteller
I don't think I tell the story very well. I always admire those people who can make the story so clear and pretty. I think there are lots of elements to make a story readable.
I am impatient when it comes to tell the story. I always cut the road short. It makes my story more boring ever.
Maurice, you are so lucky to be a film maker. Wish I have that ability to tell the tale well. Duh.
For all the playwright in the world. You guys are the best!!!!!
Wedding Event
I went to work for a catering job yesterday. It was a wedding event for the evening. Lately, I have been reluctant to work for the catering company. I am kind of tired and overworking everyday. Besides, I am preparing my nursing dress project. The life is kind of very stressful. I don't control my mood very well. No love life either. :(
The catering jobs I had in past couple of months were mostly wedding events. I got the chances to see how Americans' weddings like. It was very interesting. It is totally different aswe had in Taiwan. American weddings are more party oriented including the dinner and dancing. In Taiwan, the weddings tend to be more like a serious dinner event. Eating and eating. And, Champagne toast was the very important part in American Wedding. It forms the completeness of the wedding.
When I am getting older, I start to see things differently. I never thought about the wedding is the meaningful binding until recently. What you got was the advantange of the legal binding. After I worked for many wedding, my world is changed. There were some sparkling moments in the events. People cry when they get married. It's the joy that was surrendered them. They might not awared of it but the affection they expressed was impeccable.
The wedding was in a gay couple's house yesterday. The house was amazing. It's huge. Really huge. There is the view of Manhattan skyline. They have two kids. They must make like millions to support the life style they have now. The house can easily fit in 80 people without any problem. This was the first time I met gay couple with kids in real life. It was vey interesting. When kids call daddies, you know love is no border. Gay people are good parents.
Wedding ceremony is a ritual. People create the environment to feel sanctuaried. Like most of ceremonies, it made the life meaningful. Religion is also like this. :)
Nice Guys Finish Last
Do we all have some kind of self tortured personality. I remembered when I useed to live in Taiwan there was a slang "if you are not a bad man, women wouldn't like you". Is that really true that we all are some sort of psychi lol? I bet it is and it is the universal language too. People tend to pursue someone who is hard to reach or gave you hard time to like.
Those words came back to my mind lately. W told me that when we chatted online in the begining of the summer. I said "no no no. Nice guys should always finish first." But in reality, we all knew everyone goes after the bad guy. The dangling feeling in our mind was the excitement mixed with the uncertainty. Uncertainty made us try even harder for nothing. Is that the mentality all we have? That sucks!!
Everyone told me that when I am dating someone, I need to play hard to get. I don't like that but it seems I have to believe it now. Obviously, that reveals how we all try to fit everyone's needs.
It's sad that nice guys always finished last. Maybe this is the man-eat-man society. You should not be naive nor too nice. You will be eaten without warning. Welcome to the real world!!!
